Life Lately, again!

Hi, everyone. It’s been a long day, and I realized I haven’t updated my blog in a while. Life has been a bit overwhelming lately, and to be honest, I feel like I’m all over the place.

Right now, my mind is cluttered with so many thoughts that I can’t seem to organize them. I don’t know which tasks are important and which ones can wait—I’m completely lost. I feel like I’m just spinning in circles without getting anywhere.

This month is almost over, and a new year is just around the corner. Yet here I am, still stuck in the same place. I’m still the same me: the girl with big dreams and endless goals, but all of it feels like it’s just locked in my head. It’s like I’m always daydreaming about what I could do but never actually doing it. Each day I grow older, and it scares me that I still haven’t figured out how to break free from my procrastination.

But on a brighter note, last week was my three-year wedding anniversary. It’s crazy how time flies. I’ve been trying my best to be a good wife to my husband, and while I’m still very much a work in progress, I’m so grateful for his love and understanding.

My husband recently asked me, “Are you happy you’ll be going to Japan next year?” Honestly, I am really happy. Visiting Japan has been one of my lifelong dreams. But at the same time, it also makes me sad because I’ll be going without him. He’s the biggest fan of all things Japanese—culture, food, anime, you name it.

Unfortunately, he couldn’t come along this time. The budget we have is only enough for one person, and he didn’t want to ruin my happiness by trying to squeeze the trip for two, knowing we wouldn’t be able to fully enjoy it together. He told me, “It’s better for you to go and truly experience it rather than both of us going and struggling.” His selflessness breaks my heart and makes me appreciate him even more. I pray that one day we’ll be able to visit Japan together and enjoy it to the fullest.

For now, I’m preparing for my trip to Japan, which is actually for a conference in Gunma. Of course, I’ll also try to squeeze in some sightseeing while I’m there. I hope it’ll be an amazing experience, even though my husband can’t be with me this time.

I just wanted to let all of this out—this mixture of feeling stuck, grateful, and excited all at once. Life is complicated, but moments like these remind me to cherish the small things and keep pushing forward. Hopefully, this trip to Japan will help me find some clarity and give me a fresh perspective for the new year.